Mixed feelings. On the one hand, my first reaction was with Barbara at #14. On the other, it takes a strong person – and one with a lot of love – to do what’s honestly best for the child. I feel strongly this is what Anita has done; to keep trying, especially when there was another option with a willing adoptive family that had the skills to care for this boy, would have been at bottom an issue of the mother’s guilt and ego – “I can do this!” – rather than what was best for the child. I hope that when Anita is ready, the new adoptive family updates her on his progress, in part because I’m sure she will always want to know, and in part because it will help her to ease her mind and reassure her that she did the right thing.
I am only at Tip #2 and can already feel my “inner writer” coming back to life. I’ve been torturing myself for so long — many new ideas and perspectives to share and nothing but dread at the thought of the actual writing. I was always such a “good student”, and by the time I finished grad school I no longer enjoyed either reading or writing. Pretty sad statement, even sadder that the ill effects have lasted three decades.
The only writing advice I’ve read so far basically boils down to: it’s work, you just have to do it, set aside a specific time and force yourself…. all about as appealing as my mother’s shoe leather lamb chops. I can’t thank you enough for your approach. I think it’s going to work for me, and just know I am immensely grateful beyond what words can express. Yes!